life

When I was growing up, I was made to believe na pag umiyak ka, its a sign of weakness, na your not "man" enough daw. That's why whenever pinapagalitan ako or may malaki akong problema, i would never cry infront of my family or anyone for that matter and just keep it to myself na lang. What I would do, is once I get back to my room, I would close the door and that's the time na I will cry, na pigil pa, yung tipong masakit sa dibdib. Pero that was before. Now, i have learned to open up my emotions, and kung gusto kong umiyak, iniiyak ko talaga. I would also share what im feeling with my nanay and siblings, at mga kaibigan. Syempre, i also pray, and share it with God. Sometimes, we want to project an aura na Matapang tayo, na kaya natin lahat, pero deep in side, we're crumbling. Thats why, we tend to wear an armor, para ang nakikita lang ng tao ay yung masayang side. Problems are part of anyone's life. It is what makes us human. Sometimes, we experience the ups and downs of life, pero we should realize na life is beautiful even with all its complexities. The journey maybe riddled with thorns, pero once you surpass it, nandoon ang fulfillment. Kaya sabi ko sa sarili, I would never give up on myself and on any person for that matter. At we should learn to forgive ourselves sa mga shortcoming at mistakes natin. And we should realize na sa buhay ng tao, marami kang chances na itama kung ano man ang mali. Kaya, don't be afraid to experience life.

burn out

Napansin ko lately, parati na akong late sa mga paperworks ko. Pagod na rin ako magtrabaho. I know naburn out na ako. That's why i decided to take it slow again. Syempre kailangan ko mag-recharge, at mag reflect ulit sa mga plans ko sa buhay. And im also transitioning into another branch, kaya they are actually building up my patient load again, kaya pa-isa isa or dalawa lang ang nakikita kong pasyente. Pero nakakabato pala pag wala kang ginagawa, hehehe!! Syempre, going to YMCA keeps me occupied naman. Im working out ng todo to use up my excess energy. At Syempre, surfing the net, and watching tfc, isali mo pa ang pag shopping para mapuno ang box na ipapadala ko sa Pilipinas. Nakapag career planning na rin ako and im ready to go back to school again by next year. Syempre, online naman ang mode of teaching. That's why i have to complete my credentials, para wala ng hassle. And im set for my vacation before the end of the year. Hopefully, this measures would give me the boost I need to get that motivation going.