Song for my Forever...

forward 2016!

Time to reflect. Christmas and new year is around the corner. I'm also turning a year older in 3 weeks time, and I can't help but look back at what has happened with my life. I feel like a broken glass, but i know, i have to pick up the shattered pieces and glue myself together. I would give anything to go back to the past. Life is not fair. I dreamed big time, but in the process, i neglected my valued relationship with a lot of people.  Money is not everything. Dream is not everything. How many people have told me, or books i have read, that adage life's lesson, others who have journeyed the same path, but i didn't listen, or have never taken it to heart. Maybe because i was so focused with success, that I sold myself to the devil. I thought material things will bring happiness, not just for me, but for the people around me. But, I was wrong big time. Life has thrown a lot of curve balls my way, in some instances, i couldn't even duck. I got hit left and right, but every time, i could stand up and heal my bruises. But boy, oh boy, i have my moments of weakness too. But, i will persevere, and confront whatever ball might hit me, may it be curve or straight. I promise myself, and Arnel (may his soul rest in peace), that i will be strong no matter what happens. I will try to enjoy life, and experience it, the best way i can. I will love the people around me, and i will  be more forgiving and understanding and hopeful about life. 

fave song ni peejay

uly's song!

soulmate......

this week is one of the hardest. Attending the funeral of a special love one, And trying to deal with the emotional turmoil boiling inside of me. Life is so unpredictable. it made me reflect on the things i have done and where i am at this point in my life. Regrets are flooding my system. What if i have done things differently?. Would the result still be the same?. Im emotionally shattered right now. its gonna be hard to pick up the pieces of my broken heart. 

We met in an unpredictable place, and at an unpredictable time. It was a time of exploration, and awakening. Something happened, and somehow, we clicked together. It was roughly 14 years ago when our paths crossed. I was ready to commit to someone, and it was with you. We had our ups and down, secrets that kept us distant at the same time, but it was a momentous chapter in my life. You said you dont have a dream for yourself, and i said why dont you dream for other people? I was happy that you finally had a dream, not for yourself, but for your family. I saw how strong you are as a person, exuding confidence and an exuberance to life, ready to conquer the world, and be successful. You were too independent that i couldnt even clip your wings even if i want too. i was freely sharing my dreams and aspirations, but you did not do the same, holding back something, hiding behind a cloack that i couldnt even see through. You exuded an aura of strength, but deep inside, you were emtionally broken too,  at the verge of your lifeline, wanting to cut the thread so easily and let go. Why give up? The person who was encouraging eveyone to be strong, and to have a reason to live, is not thinking on the same line. You were full of contradictions. i did not even saw the signs. 

Its now time to let you go. Please forgive me for my shortcomings, for not being there when you needed me in the lowest point of your life, and in the same way, i forgive you too . No more tears. I pray that God will keep you, and protect you. i will continue the good deeds you have started. Your family will be my family. i will help them at the outmost of my ability. i will share my blessings in the best way i can. Rest in peace Soulmate. I know that we will meet again. My jouney is not yet done, but in time our paths will cross again. but for now, till we meet again. Goodbye!

HIV/AIDS

Researchers were saying before that HIV/AIDS in the Philippines was "low and slow", but now, its going the other way around. While the rate of infection for the rest of the world is going down, we are trending up. I think that we failed to anticipate how social media - access to internet, mobile technology became an engine for the spread of infection. We knew that it was gonna happen, but we lack the forsight to use our previous successes in prevention programs to translate it to new innovation. I know that this is not a blame game, and im not pointing any finger. What im saying is that we can do better, and we are, right now. As more people, and more sectors get involved, it will be done.  

Repro Health

Its about time congress passes this measure. The RH bill will address a lot of issues, including adolescent health, STDs/HIV/AIDS, men and women's RH concern, access to services which includes education, counseling and medical health. Only good things will come out from this measure. Giving people an informed choice, and letting them decide for themselves what they want to do with the size of their family, how to best protect themselves from sexually transmitted diseases, learning lifeskills for the youth - on peer pressure, saying "No", preventing teenage pregnancy. I know the catholic church would raise hell, but this is gonna be heaven for our poverty stricken country. Its a necessary measure to bring hope to the next generation.